Days Off

I'm hoping for a day off soon.  I don't know when I will get one, but I'm hoping it's soon.  I just realized that the last day I did not work was August 15th.  I might be crashing a little bit from doing the same kind of work everyday.  I've been losing track of my days easily and zoning out quite a bit.  Today I got lost on the way to work.  I only live about 5-10 minutes away and I basically go to one of my jobs everyday.  I don't even really remember what I've been doing these days and it seems like the days are flying by.  I'm scheduled to work through Saturday and the schedule isn't out for Sunday yet.  Let's hope I get that day off soon before my mind wanders off more.

Today was Bum's birthday so happy birthday to him.  I hope you enjoy the gift I'm getting you.  I worked at both places today and had pretty busy days at both.  I bought my book for my class and it was 150 dollars.  My dad will reimburse me for anything school related though because he thinks education and money is all life is about...  After working for most of the day I went to Kansai with my friends for Bum's birthday.  I went with Bum, GosuMike, MooMoo, Lancelot and 2 friends you haven't met yet, Vandal and Chorean.  Kansai is a Japanese restaurant with a pretty late happy hour where they sell sushi and sake bombs for pretty cheap.  I didn't drink, but everyone else did so it was pretty fun.  I like watching buzzed/drunk people attempting to function properly.

After Kansai we went to Bum's house to watch Beast Wars.  That show is fucking hilarious.  It was so good when we were kids, but now it just cracks me up.  After that we called it a night.

Someone Like You

Right now I'm listening to Someone Like you by Adele and it reminds me of you.  It's funny how easily I've forgotten about all the times we've had.  You were such a huge part of my life and you pretty much vanished instantly.  Whenever I see you, I remember all the good time we've had and there have been alot.  I loved you more than anything I've ever loved before which is probably why I've gone a little bit insane since you've left.  I guess what didn't kill me made me stronger.  You're the reason why I work, push myself at the gym, live recklessly, and care so much about the people around me.  You've probably changed my life more than anyone else without even knowing it.  I only wish the best for you.

Goals

Today I got off work around 9 and went home.  I was pretty tired and wanted to rest before I went to the gym with GosuMike.  I got super lazy and didn't feel like going anymore and decided to go tomorrow.  I decided about 30 minutes later that I can't miss a day.  I've been missing way too many days lately and I shouldn't be.  It's time for me to start working harder in everything I do.  I want to be stronger, faster, and just better.  For some reason I just want to be better at basketball.  I also want to see my friends everyday before they go back to school.  These will be my goals over the next few months.  No more being tired.

On a side note:

I bought new basketball shoes today!  They come in 6-8 days and I'm super excited.

Same Old

Today I worked for 12 hours and it sucked.  It was pretty slow at Tapioca Express, but busy at Linguini's.  I know I said I don't mind the busy days because of the extra money, but today I was just tired.  Everyday I finish work I feel so relieved that it's over.

After work I went to the gym with GosuMike.  We worked out chest an triceps.  It was pretty short, but also incredibly tiring.  I benched 165 which is my new max and it felt pretty good.  I am so glad I don't have to wake up early tomorrow for work.  I am just tired and need some rest.

On a side note:
Felicity visited me at work today and we talked for a little bit.  It's always nice to see her because she puts a smile on my face somehow...

Girls = Trouble

Girls are trouble....  I don't know why, they just are!  I've liked this girl for like 5 months.  I'm not going to tell you who it is and some of you already know.  She is almost exactly like me and I have a huge crush on her.  Her personality is like mine, we listen to the same music, eat the same food, enjoy playing video games and we just get along.  I don't know if it would even be a good thing if I could date her because I've never really met someone exactly like me and well do I want to date myself?  She's not even single, she has a boyfriend and fuck his motherfucking bitch ass couch.

Here is where it gets complicated.  I had a dream last night and it was about someone else.  I'm not going to tell you who it is, but I had a dream and in it this girl was my girlfriend.  I don't really know what to think of this dream because I don't really know what to think of this girl.  I guess I would consider her a pretty good friend, but I really just don't know.  She's kind of like me too, but in a different way.  We're not really into the same things, but we have very similar thought processes.  I actually think we would make a good couple and she's even jokingly mentioned that we would be good for each other.  I don't know what to think... Was it just a dream or am I trying to tell myself something?

Girls are just trouble...

Hakuna Matata

If you don't know what the title of my blog means, go watch Lion King right now!  So basically, hakuna matata means "no worries" and that's basically how my life is right now.  I start school tomorrow, which I'm kinda excited about.  It's been quite sometime since I sat in a classroom and well I hope I can stay awake for 3 hours.  I'm only taking 1 class to ease myself back into school.  I will be working about 9-10 shifts per weeks because of coworkers going to school, but that's okay.  I could always use the money to save up and the shifts are short anyways.  I'm pretty happy with this upcoming week because I'll be working with Blossom 3 days.  She's the most experienced and easiest to work with.

Today was a pretty good day.  I worked at both jobs from 10-5 and 6-10 today.  It was pretty busy at both places which was reasonable.  Tapioca Express was busy because it was hot and people enjoy cold drinks on hot days.  Linguini's was busy because, Wednesday is all you can eat pizza night and Americans love their fucking pizza.  I kind of enjoy the busy days because its more money and who doesn't enjoy more money.  I went to the gym with GosuMike and had a pretty good workout.  I'm excited for tomorrow and hopefully these next few months will be good to me...

Special Thanks

For my birthday my coworkers basically got me a new wardrobe.  PHJ bought me 7 shirts and a new pair of shoes, PIC bought me a shirt, Lucky bought me a shirt, Fluffy bought me a shirt and Blossom bought me a belt.  I would like to thank them for all the new clothes because I don't have that much to begin with.  I think it's funny how this year has gone.

January was when my girlfriend broke up with me, I was out of school, and had to move back home.  I was alone, hopeless and tired, sitting in my room everyday.  If it wasn't for my coworkers and a couple of my friends I would probably still be the same.  All of my usual friends were in school, busy and didn't know about my situation.  After a couple of weeks of doing nothing, I told PHJ and GosuMike that I was at home with nothing to do.  Bum already knew about everything because we still talk during the school year even though he's in Irvine.  I started hanging out with PHJ, GosuMike, Blossom, Fluffy, and PIC.  You guys gave me company, comfort, hope and energy.  I was able to talk about my problems with PHJ and Bum.  Gosumike convinced me to join the gym.  PHJ, Blossom, PIC, and Fluffy all helped me to get my job at Tapioca Express.  It was February that I started working and exercising,  March was when I was motivated to find my second job. 

These are the people who changed my life.  They saved me from myself and I thank them for that.  I began enjoying life, being productive and now I'm even going back to school.  You all saved my life and I appreciate all the things you've done for me.  This is a message to all my friends, if you are ever in need of something, I will be there for you.  Also good luck to all my friends who have started school, are starting school soon, working at new jobs, and looking for jobs.

The Journey

So first off today is my birthday.  Yesterday I went to GosuMike's house with a group of friends and we drank a little bit.  We did Irish Car Bombs which is Guinness, Jameson Whisky, and Baileys.  Its supposed to taste like chocolate milk, but I didn't like it too much.  We also did some shots of whisky and vodka.  Basically I didn't get home till 5 and I pretty much knocked out. 

Here is where my story begins...  At 1:30 PHJ texted saying she needed me to do something for her.  She wanted me to get her a parking pass at Laney Community College so she could park there, walk to bart, and take bart to school (she goes to SF state).  So I agreed and went to pick up Bum to come with me.  We went to College of Alameda because they're part of the same system, its closer and I figured the line would be shorter.  So we went to the cashiers office and it had moved, but we didn't know where.  We walked around the campus and Bum asked a girl where it was.  She said it was in building A, so we walked over to building A and the line wasn't too bad, like 7-8 people.  After waiting for about 15 minutes I asked the cashier, who is this Fat Bitch who's been working there forever, if I could buy a parking pass.  She said I needed a student ID number and couldn't get it without it.  We walked to the library to sign onto my school account to find out my number.  After finding out my number I went back to the cashier which had a line of about 4-5 people.  After waiting 10 minutes, the fat bitch told me I couldn't get it because all my classes were at Laney.

We went to Laney, which luckily is not very far away.  We looked at a directory and it said the cashier's office was in building A.  We walked to building A, but we could only find the library so we asked this immigrant looking mexican dude where the cashier's office was.  He said I think it's in that building on the 4th floor.  We walked over to the building, but all of the doors were locked.  We walked all around it and check every door...  Afterwards we went to the library and asked this woman where the cashiers office was.  She said building A and pointed at the side of the building.  We walked towards it and discovered a long ass line.  We waited in line for about 45 minutes and finally got the damn parking permit.  All in all, the journey took about 2.5 hours....

Humanity Points

I worked from 10 am to 10 30 pm today and I have work again in 7 hours so I'll keep this short.  Some fucker clogged the toilet at Tapioca Express and didn't tell us.  I had to find out from a customer sometime later that the toilet was flooding and by that time it had already flooded to the door.  When I went to clean it up, I also noticed the person failed at plunging.  There was toilet paper everywhere and the toilet was still clogged.  I unclogged the toilet, which took about 5 seconds and mopped up the mess.  What a little fucker.  Some people are super retarded!!  Tomorrow will be a better day...

Catching Up

Today my ex-girlfriend, I'll call her Felicity, took me out to lunch for my birthday.  We went to this place in Alameda called Sushi House and well... they serve sushi.  We shared 3 rolls, a Lion King (baked salmon over california roll), and Island roll (raw salmon and lemon over tempura roll) and a philadelphia roll (cream cheese, salmon, and avacado) which were all pretty good.  We still talk sometimes about how things are going, but I hadn't talked to her in about a month and it's okay because I know she's busy and I am too.  We caught up a little had some laughs and it was nice.  We gave each other back some stuff that we had kept and hadn't really had the chance to give back.  We went to Tapioca Express and I made her a green apple smoothie with lychee jelly.  Even though she is my ex-girlfriend, getting along is easy and fun.

I had to work today at Linguini's and it was tiring.  The other busser called in sick so it was just me by myself.  We had 23 tables tonight which came out to be 65 people.  I keep track of the tables and people to keep myself occupied, which prevents me from freaking out.  Afterwards my boss bought me dinner which was really nice of her.  I ordered this dish called seafood delight which is sea bass, clams, prawns, and chorizo over garlic mashed potatoes and it's pretty fucking good.  After work I went over to Gamer's house and played some scrabble with Gamer, BB, Bum, and my cousin, I'll call him Ecoli.  Tomorrow I have work all day which I can't wait for it to be over.  I'll be seeing alot of people I don't know since I'll be working 12-13 hours so I'll probably have to have a humanity points blog tomorrow. We''ll see how stupid people will be....

Just Be Yourself?

Okay.. So when you like a girl, I think the generic advice is to "just be yourself", but I feel like this might be one of the most difficult things to do.  We often try to impress the person we are infatuated with and often times we do things we may normally not do.  We become what we think that person may like and it may be small things, like.... being a little nicer, or joking around a little more, maybe even paying for stuff.  What if you become a different person?  When do you cross the line between being yourself and acting like someone else.  How much would you actually be willing to change in the long run to be with that person?  If you are by nature cheap, would you try to be more generous, if you don't like chinese food and that's all they ate would you try to eat it with them, if you were shy would you try to be more social?  Your personality is who you are and if you change it, then who have you become?  Most people aren't perfect for each other so then that must mean they compromised and changed a little bit.. right?  How much can you change and how long can you change for?  Your true personality has to come out at sometime or would you be happy being someone else?  Some of us are just on that hook for someone and we try so hard to be something that we're not.  All I can say is... be yourself and if that's not good enough for that person then they are obviously not for you.  Find someone who enjoys your little quirks and enjoy theirs.  Compromise is okay, acting isn't.


On a side note:

My family took me out to dinner for my birthday today.  I went with my parents, both my sisters, and my nephew.  We went to this place called Ahn Hong in Berkeley, which is a Vietnamese cuisine restaurant.  We had beef carpaccio, chicken, pork, and beef spring rolls.  My older sister gave me 50 bucks and a giant cookie for my birthday.  She baked it herself, she's a pastry chef.  She makes awesome cookies and pastries, but her specialty is wedding cakes.  This is her website and you should all get your baked goods from her.  My mom made me a personal ice cream cake and it was amazing.  We heated up the cookie and put the ice cream cake on top of it.  We ate it together as a family and it was probably one of the best desserts I've ever had.  Today was a great day...

Humanity Points!

So my friend Brandon, I call him BB in my blog, has his own blog called Humanity points.  It's about how people do stupid ass shit and how he has zero faith in society today.  This is his blog and you should all check it out.  He has a imaginary point scale and it goes down when he observes people doing stupid stuff and goes up when he sees decency. 

So I'm bringing this up because he is in Vegas right now and I thought I would do a little post for him.  I was listening to LoveLine, which is this late night radio show about sex, drugs, and some stupid stuff and this guy called in.  He said he was taking a piss in the bushes and ...........  a PRAYING MANTIS jumped on his PENIS and started attacking it.  WHAT THE FUCK?  A praying mantis jumped on his penis?  He said he was in so much pain that he tried to shake it off.  Now I don't know about you, but I think bugs have an easy time hanging onto objects.  He didn't say how he got it off his penis, but it was just so hilarious and I couldn't believe how stupid this guy was.  I feel this deserves negative points....

On a side note:
Today was another meatless day.  Tomorrow my family is taking me out to dinner for my birthday and I feel I should be able to eat meat on this day.  I switched it up so no days would be missed.  Today I ate a banana, broccoli, and tofu.  Lots of tofu.  My friend, I'll call him Jay Tree, has told me that I need more protein to rebuild muscle cells since I go to the gym alot, so on my meatless days I will try to eat more tofu to fill my protein needs.  And also a protein shake here and there....

Day 1

Today was a pretty productive day.  Drove myself to the dentist and used my GPS for the first time.  I still got lost... but it wasn't too bad.  I am happy to say I have no cavities.  After the dentist I came home and got ready for work.  I worked at Linguini's and it wasn't too bad, we had 8 tables and 25 customers which is decent for a Tuesday night.  After work I ate dinner with 2 of my coworkers from Tapioca Express, PHJ and another girl, I'll call her PIC (Partner in Crime).  We ate at this restaurant called King of Thai and I ate tofu curry.  It was kind of bland and it made me sad to eat it.  After dinner I went to the gym by myself and worked out my back and biceps.  It was a pretty good workout even though I was tired and didn't have too much energy.  After the gym I went to Bum's house with GosuMike to play Starcraft 2.  Overall was a pretty good day.

It was my first day of cutting back on meat.  I ate 5 slices of peanut butter toast, tomato basil soup, and tofu curry.  Tomorrow I'm off all day so I don't know what to do with myself.

Protein Overload?

Today I read this article about how much protein humans really need.  This is the article if you want to read it.  Basically it says that humans don't really need that much protein, yet we eat a lot of protein everyday.  The article also says that eating a ton of meat is bad for the environment because it takes enormous amounts of pesticides, fuel, chemical fertilizers and also there is increase in greenhouse gases from meat and dairy production.  I never knew eating meat harmed the environment.  I've never cared much for the environment, but maybe its about time I did.  I also feel like challenging myself for a bit.  The article suggests eating one less hamburger per week, eating other protein sources such as beans, low-fat yogurt, etc, buying higher grades of meat/dairy and not wasting meat.  My challenge to myself will be... not eating meat every other day.  This will be stupidly challenging because I eat ridiculous amounts of meat...  I ate beef today so tomorrow I will start my journey in helping the environment and challenging myself.  Wish me luck and maybe I'll ask some of my friends to join as well.

Words of Wisdom

I work at an Italian restaurant called Linguini's and one of my favorite servers quit about 2 months ago.  Her name is Nyanda and she posted this on her facebook yesterday "We can not help those who do not wanna help themselves.....or are to oblivious to see the destructive path they've created due to selfishness.....your energy makes me emotionally and mentally exhausted.....it's time to practice what I preach and learn from my mistakes rather then continuing to repeat them...so I'm letting go, in hopes that you find yourself, you lost soul."  I feel like alot of us have a friend that we want to help so badly, but we can't.  They refuse to accept or even acknowledge help is required.  What can you do?  When you have repeatedly tried to help someone and nothing has worked.  As difficult as it may be, the best option for yourself is to let go.  Its not worth being exhausted and if they don't want your help then the best thing to do for yourself is to let that person find themselves.  Letting go is something we all must learn at some point in life...

Baby Steps

Today I signed up for a class at the local community college.  I only signed up for one class, general accounting because I haven't been in school for awhile and I kind of just want to get started.  I think the hardest thing for me is just getting started.  Once that's done I think I will be okay going forward.  Next semester I will figure out what I really want to do in school.  For now I will just continue to work and slowly get back into school.  School starts on August 25th and I'm excited to start up again.  Let's just hope I don't screw things up this time...

Other than signing up for school my day was pretty standard.  I played some basketball with my friends, went to the gym with GosuMike, and ate ate this resaurant called La Penca Azul with some friends.  AND my parents bought me a GPS for my birthday, which is awesome!  I have the worst sense of direction and getting out of Alameda is troublesome because I fail.  My parents are awesome for knowing what I need...

Comfort Zone?

Have you ever had one of those days where you have nothing to do so you just sleep?  One of those days where you are so comfortable you don't want to get out of bed.  You open your eyes, it's 10 am, and close your eyes.  Next time you open them it's noon, and you close your eyes again.  Then you open your eyes again and it's 3 pm and you force yourself out of bed, but most of your day is already gone.  Well that's how I've been living my life.  I've been comfortable all my life and I've been sleeping.  I've never cared about school, money, or my future.  Education has never been important to me even though I know it's something I need.  I've never had bills to pay so money has never been important and I've always cared about today, not tomorrow.  I don't know why I don't care it's just how I am.

This is the time I should be caring and planning my future.  I am at 2 dead end jobs right now and I don't care about the money.  The money is fine because I don't have bills to pay and my life is comfortable.  I know this is not my future, but I don't care enough to make myself start planning it.  I need to go back to school and the longer I wait the more likely I won't go back.  Education is what I need to start my future, but it's just not important to me.  All of my friends are either graduated or still in school.  I am by far the furthest behind and I know it.  The last time I closed my eyes I was 17 and I just graduated high school.  I've opened my eyes again and I turn 22 in 2 weeks.  If I go back to sleep the next time I wake up might be when I'm 25.  This is the time when I need to start caring.  I've been comfortable for too long.  I've been awake for a little while now.... When do i get out of bed before I fall asleep again?

Kome

Today I woke up around 4 pm because I slept really late last night.  I had dinner plans so I basically had to get ready when I woke up.  I had to pick up Lancelot, GosuMike, and a new friend, I'll call him MooMoo.  I drove Lancelot, GosuMike, and MooMoo to San Francisco to eat at a buffet called Kome.  We met BB and Bum there because BB has summer school in SF and Bum was at his apartment.  The buffet was pretty good, it was all Asian food, but mostly sushi.  I ate two plates of mostly sashimi, which is raw fish.  I also enjoyed many many desserts.  my favorite was mango pudding, but I also had, green tea pudding, taro, pudding, strawberry pudding, creme brule, and almond mousse cake.  It was all really delicious.  GosuMike ate about 5 plates of food and 7 mango puddings because he's crazy.  He had the worst food coma and passed out on the car ride home...

After dinner I went to play pool with GosuMike, PHJ, and PHJ's friend, I'll call her Princess Peachy.  We also played with Blossom, but she didn't come until later.  We played at this place in Emeryville called the Broken Rack because it is really nice and they serve drinks there.  We played 2 on 2 with Princess Peachy being my teammate.  We killed GosuMike and PHJ in the first 4 games, but we finally lost one.  I had a few drinks called the Patron Cadillac.  It's my favorite drink there because its strong, but the citrus flavors hide the tequila taste very well. 

After a few more games of pool me and GosuMike met up with Lancelot, Bum and BB so we could take another walk on the shoreline.  This time it was very quiet and we walked faster than the first time.  We walked along the beachside for about an hour and we called it a night....  Tomorrow I got work at both jobs... Sweet... 

Puzzle

So I have a story to tell.  I was hanging out with two of my friends Blossom and the other friend I will call PHJ.  PHJ is my co worker at Tapioca Express, but she also works at a daycare.  She received all of this week off from her bosses and was super excited.  She said " I think I will use my free week to get a puzzle and solve it".  I told her " Why do you need a puzzle when you already have one... It's called life".  So yea that's my story... kind of short, but I thought I'd tell it to you....

Anyways onto my day.  I worked from 10-5 today at Tapioca Express and I was being retarded all day.  I worked with my friends Lucky and Blossom.  I had a rough day at work because I couldn't do anything right and I kept having to ask Blossom for help.  I felt pretty awful about it, but next time will be a better work day....After work I went home and found out all of my tires had low air pressure so I had to pump all my tires.

Around 7 I had dinner at Blossom's house with Blossom, her aunt, and PHJ.  For dinner she cooked tofu with ground pork, chicken wings, zucchini, pineapple sausage, and bulgolgi.  If you haven't had bulgogi, it is a korean style beef and it is amazing.  Especially the one Blossom made because I ate a stupid amount of it.  The rest of the dinner was great too and I'm glad she invited me.  Afterwards I played with Blossom's cats even though I am pretty allergic.  Her cats are just so fluffy and fun to play with!

After dinner I went to another friend's house, I'll call her gamer.  Hung out with Gamer, BB, Bum, Lancelot, and GosuMike.  We played some Starcraft 2, Scrabble and a card game called Bang!.  Then me, Bum, Lancelot, and GosuMike went for a walk on the shoreline around 3 AM.  It was pretty refreshing just walking next to the beach eating and chatting.  I think it's something we should do more often.  After our awesome walk we called it a night.

Paintball

So today I went paintballing for the first time today.  Went with 2 of my homies, I'll call them Lancelot and Bum, Lancelot's brother and his friend.  It was me and Bum's first time ever paintballing and it was pretty scary.  We woke up early and left at 8 this morning to Livermore.  It was Lancelot's gift to me and Bum for our birthdays because our birthdays are coming up soon.  The worst thing about being new to paintballing is the fear of getting shot.  I was worried about how ridiculous the pain would be...  We played about 10 games and getting shot wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.  I was shot about 4 times in the bod, once in the head, and a few times in the gun.  The hosts also provided free ice cream and 1 dollar hot dogs which was awesome!  After paintball we went to get Pho which was pretty delicious after a tiring start to the day.

When we got home we played some basketball.  After basketball we went to Chipotle and then I went to the gym with GosuMike.  GosuMike is my gym partner and we always try to go late when it is least crowded.  Today we did chest and triceps, which was ridiculously tiring...  My arms felt like they were going to fall off afterwards.  Then we hung out at Bum's house for a little bit and called it night.  Gotta rest up for work tomorrow...

Fuddruckers

Today was a pretty awesome day.  I was off all day which is the first in awhile and I slept until 3 or 4 pm.  My sister came over and she brought my little nephew.  He is only about 4 months old and he is not used to me yet because I don't see him very often.  I try to carry him and play with him as much as I can.  He is a little fussy when I try to carry him, but he is pretty good overall and he is super cute. 

For dinner I went to Fuddrucker's with a bunch of my friends.  The main reason is because one of them, I'll call him DP, is going to Iowa for 3 weeks and we go to his house everyday.  We are all kind of bummed out about this, but it will be okay...  Anyways we ate here because he wanted his last meal in California to be there.  He and 3 of my other friends do this thing called the Fuddrucker's challenge.  It's quite ridiculous, but very funny.  Basically everytime they go to Fuddrucker's and the challenger has to eat what the last person ate and also add an item.  So far it is at a 1 pound burger, basket of fries, milk shake, and a cookie.  Today no one did the challenge because we just wanted to enjoy our meal and have a good time.  I had an elk burger which was actually delicious and much better than expected.

After our meal we went to DP's house.  We played some Starcraft 2 and Street Fighter 4, then we called it a night. 

Thoughts

The last two days have been pretty normal.  Haven't really done anything out of the ordinary.  I worked both days and went to the gym both days.  I hung out with friends playing games and watching tv. 

My friend/co worker, I'll call her Blossom had an interview last week with Safeway corp and she is really excited.  I went to high school with her and even had a class with her in Davis, but I never really met her until this year.  Blossom is probably one of my favorite people these days.  She is funny, hardworking, bubbly, and she gives great advice.  Blossom has been through alot in her life and I think she needs this.  Both her parents passed away before she was out of high school, she's had financial issues her whole life and she has been looking for a real job for over a year now.  She is a fantastic person and I really hope she gets this job because she deserves it.  I think I will pray for her...  I am not much of a religious person, but I do believe in a God and I think everyone could use a little help in times of need...

Motivation

I started working out this year and I loved it.  I joined 24 fitness in March and I saw a friend that I hadn't seen in 2 or 3 years.  He is in incredible shape and I had never worked out before, so he kind of took me under his wing and helped me out a little bit.  He was doing an intense 12 week program of weight lifting and cardio.  In the program we do 2 sessions of 20 minute cardio and a weight lifting session.  We also take alot of supplements to help burn fat because this program is for transforming your body.  The program was incredible, I worked out with him for 12 weeks and I lost around 30 pounds.  I was highly motivated the whole time and I would have to say it was one of my better achievements in life over the past few years.

I am kind of sad and a little less motivated these days because my friend moved to Germany last week.  He is getting married in a few months and his fiance lives in Germany.  I still go to the gym with my other friends and myself at times, but they are not as intense as him.  I went today and had an okay workout.  Did biceps and triceps tonight.  I try to use music to help me focus these days because I love music and the right songs really get me pumped.  I hope I can stay focused for myself, maybe create some goals and possibly reach them someday.