Have you ever had one of those days where you have nothing to do so you just sleep? One of those days where you are so comfortable you don't want to get out of bed. You open your eyes, it's 10 am, and close your eyes. Next time you open them it's noon, and you close your eyes again. Then you open your eyes again and it's 3 pm and you force yourself out of bed, but most of your day is already gone. Well that's how I've been living my life. I've been comfortable all my life and I've been sleeping. I've never cared about school, money, or my future. Education has never been important to me even though I know it's something I need. I've never had bills to pay so money has never been important and I've always cared about today, not tomorrow. I don't know why I don't care it's just how I am.
This is the time I should be caring and planning my future. I am at 2 dead end jobs right now and I don't care about the money. The money is fine because I don't have bills to pay and my life is comfortable. I know this is not my future, but I don't care enough to make myself start planning it. I need to go back to school and the longer I wait the more likely I won't go back. Education is what I need to start my future, but it's just not important to me. All of my friends are either graduated or still in school. I am by far the furthest behind and I know it. The last time I closed my eyes I was 17 and I just graduated high school. I've opened my eyes again and I turn 22 in 2 weeks. If I go back to sleep the next time I wake up might be when I'm 25. This is the time when I need to start caring. I've been comfortable for too long. I've been awake for a little while now.... When do i get out of bed before I fall asleep again?
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