Beautiful Day

So today was sunny which was weird because it has been kind of stormy for a couple of days this week.  I decided since it was so nice outside, that I would walk to work.  It was about a 45 minute walk and it felt great.  Its kind of nice to just be with your thoughts and music.  It's also very logical because I have to eat an early breakfast which normalizes my meal times (I can eat lunch at like 12 or 1 instead of 2 or 3), I get in 2 cardios during the day because I have to walk back home, I save gas (I basically make negative money) and I don't have to look for parking (which is a bitch).  There's a lot of pros and the only con is that I have to wake up earlier which isn't so bad.  So from today on, I will be walking to work if weather permits.

So I have been having a bit of an identity crisis lately.  It hasn't been as bad since those 2 weeks I was faded...  I have talked to or received advice from quite a few of you and I am glad.  One of my favorite things is talking to people who are logical and social.  Making money to me isn't nearly as important as it is to be happy.  If I can find a job that I enjoy and make enough to survive, then I will be incredibly happy.  That's the main problem, finding something that I enjoy.

So here are the few of the things that were suggested to me and I've kind of put to the side.  One of them was bartender which was a pretty good suggestion.  It's social, doesn't take too long to learn, and the money isn't terrible.  The reason why I don't like it is because I think I would crack under pressure, I'm not good with my hands, and with my experience making drinks so far (tapioca drinks) I'm incredibly messy.  Another suggestion was doctor's assistant, which wouldn't be terrible because I do like helping people and I was told that the money is decent.  Here's the problem... 2 more years of school.  I'm terrible at school and 2 years isn't that long, but I don't think I can keep my focus for that long.  The last one that I will mention is mechanic.  This friend realized that I'm kind of done with school for now and this would be something I could possibly learn.  It's interesting, hands on, and possibly enjoyable.  The only con again is that I'm bad with my hands, but I don't know if that should stop me.  These are just some of the suggestions from the opinions I completely trust.

The one thing that I think I would absolutely enjoy doing is personal trainer.  The problem is that the money is extremely shaky.  In order to make money, I would need clients and clients are never guaranteed.  It wouldn't take me that long to get certified, I would be interested in what I'm studying, its social and I'm addicted to fitness these days.  Like I said earlier, being happy is more important than being rich, but I have to make enough money to survive and I honestly don't know if I would be able to survive on an unstable paycheck.  One other thing that I have thought about in the past is becoming a day trader.  I am a huge risk taker and if there's anything I am incredibly good at, it's recognizing patterns.  I know there's more to day trading than these, but I think I could learn.  Now here comes the huge buzzkill....  My mom works for an investment banking company and I would need permission to trade every time and that would make it impossible...

So these are all the thoughts wandering my mind these days, plus work and girl....  I will continue to juggle these thoughts on the way to and from work everyday.  Tomorrow I'm going to have breakfast with BB which is good because he is one of the friends that I talk to and get advice from plus I haven't seen him in awhile.